Thursday, May 12, 2011

Ashes and Dust

I initially started this blog to help me work through my emotions surrounding the death of J, my dearest friend. Six years later, I am returning to its roots by writing about losing my father. It feels good to get thoughts and feelings down, even if it doesn't help me solve anything.

The following is my contribution for Velvet Verbosity's 100 Words this week. This round's word is FORGOTTEN. VV is choosing very helpful words for my process. :). Thank you, my sweet readers, for your patience and compassion while indulging me.



Appraising someone else's treasures is more difficult than you'd think. I struggle with evaluating and thinning Dad's beloved book collection, and glance at his sacred "ham shack" in the corner. The old amateur radios that used to whisper through the registers after my bedtime are now quiet until sold to other operators. The powdery ash that was once my Daddy will soon be one with the Rockies, assimilated and quickly forgotten by the elements. I've never been one to linger by caskets or gravestones ... but maybe that's what I'm doing now. Letting go so very reluctantly.

10 comments:

Coffeypot said...

Not to worry. You will let go when you are ready. Not lingering around graves and headstones is quiet common...but they aren't your dad.

upinthecosmos said...

Beautiful! You can let go but never forget that love:-)

Stacy Lynn said...

Let this job go for a while if you need to. So many people rush us to clear out the house when someone dies....so we can get on with life. Personally, I think it's fine to hang on for a while. Life will still go on and move forward even if you need the comfort of your dad's things for a while yet. You'll be able to thin that book collection and let go of the radio when you're ready.

seekingelevation said...

I really liked this contribution to the challenge. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Tara R. said...

A very touching piece. I dread having to do the same when my parents pass.

Carrie said...

This is a beautiful tribute to your father. Someone who means so much shouldn't be let go of easily.

I hope this process helps you find the closure you need.

Visiting from VV's 100 words

Velvet Verbosity said...

Writing is my healing tool for everything, so I understand. Thank you for continuing to share this with us.

Martie said...

Although this is past your post by a couple months I just wanted you to know that the pain of his loss really never gets easier, but it does become softer!

Was good to see you a couple weeks ago. Wish we could have spent more time together. Love and hugs!

website said...

Dont forget to pray. Give strength to your faith.

Benedict said...

Letting go of someone you love is never easy but we have to face the reality that it is God's will that they leave us here on earth. Stay strong and pray always.