Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Post Holiday Post

While 2006 wasn't a total disaster, it wasn't my favorite year either. And while the turning of December 31 to January 1 is really only another new day, just as on a birthday you're merely one day older than the day before ... Somehow the changing of the calendar year lends new hope in its magical way.

I was anxious for the new year to begin.

And just as New Year's Day is just another day when you get down to it, so continue all the stresses and concerns of life that were there during that last year of only a few hours ago.

My Dad and I haven't always been on good terms. There have been points in time where we have gotten along well enough, but more often than not we've been at various points between walking on eggshells and not speaking to each other at all. I can't say as to why it's always been this way. Many people have told me it's because we're so much alike, but that doesn't quite make sense to me. But he had little tolerance nor patience with the racket of youth, and I never felt that I was good enough to please him. And for whatever the reasons, we never quite attained that sweet bond shared by most fathers and daughters.

A strange thing happens when you grow up, though - and especially when you have kids of your own. You develop an understanding for your parents that is simply impossible to attain in youth. You also learn to look past a lot of things, and truly believe your parents did the best they could in raising you. And you find that you need them in brand new ways.

My Dad has been diagnosed with cancer. It is malignant, and they won't really know how advanced things are until further scans and surgery can be performed. All this is coming up in the next few weeks, so I will be preoccupied.

It's funny how some things can make you forget what it was that built walls between you in the first place.

I may or may not blog further on this. But I just wanted to ask for prayers. Thanks in advance.

12 comments:

theresa said...

You and your family will have many heartfelt prayers and lots of hugs, sweet girl.
Take care of yourself!

Ame said...

"Somehow the changing of the calendar year lends new hope in its magical way." . . . me, too

Dear God, I lift Clew and her dad up to You, Holy, Good, Sovereign God. The tumult of emotion that swirls and stands still all at the same time . . . I pray that You would enable Clew to sort thru it all and let it make sense at just the right time. May there be more answers than questions, and may You provide infinitely more peace than discord. Thank You for loving Clew so perfectly and wholly; I love You, Ame

martie said...

You know you have our prayers daily. We are thinking of you and the entire family and wish there was something more that we could do to ease your stress and yet we know that prayers are the best and work wonders. Comfort, peace and much love is being sent your way. Know that you are loved......Hugs and missing you!

chesneygirl said...

You already know you have my prayers.
I wish there was something more that I could do.

Love you!!! :)

Saur♥Kraut said...

A (belated) Happy New Year to you, girl! We both had a rough year in 2006. I'm looking forward to a fresh start!

Slick said...

Ah Clew...buddy, you know you and your family are most certainly in my thoughts.

I wish the best for all of ya'll.

McSwain said...

I'm so sorry, Clew. I'll keep you all in my prayers.

Jody said...

Clew, I will keep you, your Dad, and your family in my prayers. I know all too well how difficult a fractured father-daughter relationship can be. I will pray for healing in your relationship as well. Love & God Bless!

The Editor said...

((((Clew)))) you and your family are in my prayers. Warm hugs!

Rebecca said...

He is in my thoughts Clew...
Hugs....

Little Miss Chatterbox said...

I am so sorry, I will be praying!!

Lainey said...

Hi Clew,
I haven't been around for a while, so I thouhgt I'd stop by.
So sorry to hear about your dad.
You're in my prayers!