Saturday, April 30, 2011

XYZ

My final post for the A to Z Challenge, at which I pretty much sucked ;).

Well, much like the challenge, this trying month is over.

Dad's memorial service was today. It was fairly short and sweet - much as he'd prefer. Lots of old familiar faces and awkward but heartfelt words. I managed not to cry while I was there. I worry that Mom is crying right now. Or perhaps that she isn't. We are not very proficient processors of overpowering emotions, either one of us.

I spent time with my brother, nephew and neice this evening. We played Trivial Pursuit and had a fun time. It feels good to laugh and love with my blood. I don't see them nearly enough.

The difficult month that draws to a close tonight has changed me in ways that will never reverse. I have aged, and my heart has lost a few irretrievable shards. I've said goodbye to people I love - people I cannot imagine not being here.

But I have a husband, and a little boy, a dog, friends and family who are here. They love me and I love them. I continue to mourn. But I will do my best to return to the living.

10 comments:

Stacy Lynn said...

The death of a loved one really does change us and make us introspective and a good night's sleep after a very long, trying day will help, too.

Yes, Husband and Son need you, but you need them right now. Don't rush for anyone...take all the time you need to heal and mourn.

Amy said...

I'm really sorry for your loss. I hope you find a place/way to grieve in whatever way you need to.

Coffeypot said...

In your own time and pace. And we are here if you need anything...except money. Money and gas. You're on your on there, babe.

Elizabeth Mueller said...

Clew, we did it! Congratulations! I have an award for you!!

poet said...

I'm so sorry. It is a hard time, saying fare the well to a parent, take your time, *gentle hugs*

Title Loans said...

Similar happened to me a year ago around this time. It is true on what they say that time will heal all. Just surround yourself with good people who make you laugh, and it makes all the difference in the world.

Sara

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This year it's going to be a blast.

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