Thursday, May 18, 2006


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… This morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain.
- John Mayer

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Perhaps it was the fiercely cleansing storm we got at dusk’s edge last night. But after many days of clinging funk, I feel renewed today. I feel – lighter. Calmer. The heavy air and the smog in my eyes are rinsed by the forceful rains. My soul invigorated by the deep massage of hail and winds. Somehow, inconsequential concerns of late were carried off in the watershed.

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Is there a second in time I looked around?
Should I sail through or drop my anchor down?

Is anything enough to kiss the ground
And say I'm here now … ?
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A bird landed on the sill of my office window this morning. A bright little goldfinch. I watched the little feathered, ink-tipped lemondrop from only inches away - and he stayed for a considerable amount of time. I don’t know if you’ve ever had the opportunity to study a tiny bird up close for any length of time, but they’re quite amazing. So delicate, and so intricately detailed. It’s very illuminating to realize how much attention has been given to the design of such a tiny creature in a big big world.

I got to thinking about how my little visitor is probably very insignificant in the big picture of universal impact. Yet he is no less a shining jewel. No less stunning a creation despite that.

I feel like, though I’m not where I’m to always remain, that I am where I’m supposed to be right now. I see no reason I can’t be content with that.


chesneygirl said...

I'm so glad for you!! :)

I thought I was feeling so much better yesterday....and then I came to work this morning...UUUGHH!

Michelle said...

Maybe you should send the little birdie my way!

Martie said...

We could all use this little birdie friend on your window sill to remind us of many things.....when he flew off, was he headed in our direction? LOL

Welcome back from the road you were on!! XOXOXO

Rebecca said...

We can all use a little clarity at times, can't we? ;)

Enjoy the gift of the bird... gifts are everywhere, we just have to see them. :)

Mindless Dribbler said...

hhmm...very interesting and a point well made Clew.

You keep impressing me day after day.....

Rhonda said...

Moments of clarity are things to treasure, but they are especially stunning when written by you.

It's Just Me said...

So glad you're out of your funk. :) Your story about the bird brought me calm just by reading it.

Nunzia said...

that's really awesome. definitely left an impression!

Kodijack said...

I am happy that you feel renewed, storms can do that.

The wonderful details of nature are fun to observe up close. How flowers work, a bee collecting nectar, its fascinating.

Anonymous said...

My little boy Hobie was beautifully colored. He was smart and funny. It would amaze me how he could sense what I was thinking. His little birdy brain was powerful. Small and powerful.

shay v. said...

You are an incredibly articulate and beautiful writer! I'm, like, so TOTALLY impressed! =)
No, really... you have a beautiful writing style!

Bougie Black Boy said...

very sweet writeup. and i agree with shay v. you are an incredibly articulate and beautiful writer. you're an artist at its finest. An earlier post you seemed someone sad about creating or not creating new art. I'm not sure why you felt this way. . . but perhaps thats the sign that YOU are a true artist. We love you. We love your writings. Keep it coming.

Cheryl said...

Nice... That's an understatement of course. This is such a peaceful post.

A Real Man said...

Quick note. So glad you are feeling better!!



Ruth Dynamite said...

"...the little feathered, ink-tipped lemondrop..."

And that's what I'll think of the next time I see a goldfinch. Good stuff.

Ame said...

The very first time I met my Mentor it was over lunch at Chilis. She took out a scrap piece of paper and wrote something like this on it (I lost it when I lost my Bible that I had then):

"God has created you for a purpose. He has you exactly where you are, in the house you're in, in the family you're in, in the town you're in, etc, for a specific purpose. And He wants to use you right where you are to win your little world to Him."

Nice to see you finding this place in your life :)